I've never really understood her. Part of my initial attraction to Buffy was the 'new girl' thing. She was hot, she was interesting, and I didn't know a thing about her.
After seven years, she's still impossible to understand sometimes. She can still surprise me. Maybe if I'd ever gotten her, I would get her. Maybe if I knew her body, I could know her mind.
She frustrates the hell out of me. She confuses and annoys. She can be the most stubborn woman in the world. She falls in love with the evil dead and still manages to be the best person I know. I want to talk sense into her sometimes and I hate some of the choices she's made but...
After seven years, she's still a mystery.
I want to know her. I want to know all her quirks, her loves and hates. I still feel like I only know part of her.
Maybe that's why I can't let go.